Wake Up Call

I finally understand what is the meaning of 欲哭无泪. Its when you're sad until you've reach a state where even crying is not enough to express the sadness in your heart. I know maybe this is just a small thing to others but to me, this is the first time i've experience such thing.

I know i cant blame anyone but blame only myself for the outcome today. I know well that i can do better but i just didnt perform. I just let those chances slip away from my hands. People have been telling me that stpm is the most difficult exam but i always assume that i can use the same attitude when i sat for spm towards stpm. And now i learn that the answer is wrong, but the price of learning this lesson is costly.

I dont want to leave my friends. I love studying and laughing together with them. I tried so hard not to cry in class today as i dont want them to see me cry again.

I know this is a wake up call for me. This is not the end yet. My ultimate goal is to succeed in stpm. I still have one more year to work on my studies and this time i will not play a fool anymore. One fall is enough and i do not want to fall for the second time.

Like what Anne said, i'm lucky that i have this wake up call. At least it made me realise that i need to buck up and not be too over confident. I know i can do it. I've conquer my 2 most feared subject- physics and add maths in the past and i'm sure i can conquer stpm as well.

For my friends reading this post, please do your friend here a little favour. I give you full authority to scold me or whack me whenever you guys see me slack. Please remind me to study and complete my homework AT HOME.

I'll indulge in my sadness for one day only. Tomorrow will be a fresh start for me. Even though things will be a little different from now on, i know i can overcome it because i have the love of God, family and friends in my heart.

Sabrina Leong, you can do it!!! Jia you jia you jia you!!!

Random Post

This quote made my day :)

Fly fly let it fly

Fly fly let it fly

let it be gone with the winds

let it fly to a place where it'll find its rightful owners

i do not need you now

family and friends are all i need now

maybe someday i'll need you

but FREEDOM is what i need now

i'm tired of waiting for answers

time and time i keep on waiting

but that time never come

I've decided to let everything go

I do not want to think of these things anymore

I want to see myself happy

I want to be independent

I want to love everyone who cares for me

And not to let them worry about me

Nobody knows what lies in the future

But i know people i love will be there for me

For a very very long time

And that's all i need

~Fly fly let it fly~

03.11.09

On 03.11.91

two babies came into this world

each with different size and character

but equally lovely and adorable

And a girl name Sabrina had the privilledge of knowing both of them

which impacted her in different ways

MISS LOO YEE KUAN

You're the best listener i've ever known in my entire life.

Thanks for always bearing with me on the phone for hours

listening to my rants and never ending problems.

Thanks for being my beloved TIME SIPPER and my movie companion.

Thanks for always being there for me even though at times i'm quite unreasonable

Thanks for always zat-ing me so that i can work hard on my maths

Thanks for always driving me here and there

Thanks for the laughter you've have brought into my life

Thanks for your advice on many things

Thanks for teaching me so many stuffs

Thanks for always being there to talk, laugh, and cry with me

MISS FOO KER LEE

Hope you like the cake and the surprise today :)

It's such a joy sitting in front of you,

always bringing me laughter and happiness

I'll always remember the encouraging words you spoke to me when i'm really down

I look up to you as my jie jie who bring so much joy to all the people around

cheering them up and lifting them up

Thanks for always helping me out in class when i'm stressed out

Thanks for always teaching me maths and chem

Thanks for always sharing you food with me

Thanks for being sucha awesome secretary

Thanks for being a CUTE, PRETTY, BOUNCING TENNIS BALL

HAPPY SWEET 18TH to the both of you!!!

You two had been such a great blessing to me

and i'm ever grateful in having both of you as my friend

All the best in everything you do

and you'll always have my fullest support

Though we may walk different paths in the future,

i'll still want to be there for your every birthday

Stay pretty, cheerful and slim always

Haha

LOVE LOVE LOVE FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART

BIG HEAD ROCKSSSSSSSS

FAT GIRL ROCKSSSSSSSS

p.s. lulu, even though i do not know what you're going through right now, i sincerely hope that you'll be fine :)

The ♥ Between Us

5 MONTHS AGO~~

We were just mere strangers. Yet fate brought us together when the 30 of us were placed in a class called L6B1. My first impression of this class was: " Yer, why place me with these group of people who dont like to talk de? And and and Calvin Nga, who is famous in amc for his gayness is in this class too!! I'm going to request to change to B2. "

At first, our class was so quiet that when we (kerlee, karleng, ziyi and i) laughed, we could hear echos of our laughter. Very often i'll tell ziyi :" Look at B2, they always laugh de, why our class so dead ? Everybody busy studying we busy laughing. " Teachers who entered our class branded us as geeks with no life except studying, studying and studying. Everyone on B1 seem so engross in studying, there was so little interaction between all of us.

NOW~~

During these few months, we've been through so much as a class together. I've met so many awesome classmates who never fail to make me laugh and cheer me up when i'm super duper sad. I still remembered few weeks ago when i cried in class, you guys just crowded around my table and surrounded me with words of encouragement, support and LOVE. Never would i imagine our friendship will be so strong even though the time we spent together was just merely 5 months.

Last time, i used to wonder what will things be like if i chose to go to inti instead of form 6. Will i be happier in kl, without my family and friends, starting everything all over again, making new friends along the way, finish my A-levels and go overseas?? I often ask myself why did i chose form 6 even after i had made up my mind to study in inti. Even after i started studying in sam tet, i will still cry at night, regretting for not going to inti. I used to feel so left out in class, even though i may laugh non stop in class, but deep inside i still cant get used to the people in class and the environment.Somehow, God placed in my class great friends that i never thought i can find in sam tet. As time grew by, i got more and more familiar with my classmates and those people whom i thought were very quiet turned out to be as talkative as me.

I love the times when the whole class roar in laughter over jokes usually made by calvin or kerlee, calling each other BFF when someone brings food to school, joining competitions just to save on class fund, gathering around the table steamboating in camerons, encouraging each other during exams, getting scolded by our dearest teacher for skipping tutorials, taking pictures and videos in class, teaching albert wear contact lens, being malat for our dance, cheering each other up when someone is down, being the noisiest B1 class in pn lau's history, singing in class, walking from one row to another just to blow water and sharing many more happy moments together.

Without us realising it, L6B1 has become a family and not just a class anymore. Each one of you will be my dearest family member and no matter what happens, L6B1 will always be L6B1 in our hearts. I'm so glad that i made this decision of doing form 6, if not i wouldnt have meet this group of people whom i love so dearly now. When people ask me now whether i'm happy doing form 6, my answer is definitely a YES.

To my dearest family members:

We have accomplished so much as a class together this year and we'll accomplish even more as a FAMILY next year. We will be BFF with chem, pa, maths, bio and muet together and make everybody proud of B1.

LOVE LOVE LOVE ALL OF YOU SO MUCH!!!!

L6B1 ROCKSSSSSSSSSSS :)

P.S : for another version of L6B1 post, please refer to calvin's blog :)

Happy Birthday Cindy

We have been friends for 11 years, classmates for 5 years and best friends forever and ever. Even though now u're in Australia and i'm in Ipoh, u'll always be my bestest friend. Gosh i cant believe we had been through so many arguments and cold war but we are still the best of friends no matter what happens. Thank you for always making me laugh at your cold jokes and helping me when other people bully me. I will always remember the good times we spent together, not forgetting the moments when you come to my house and study but end up talking. Haha.

Today is your big day dear Cindy Yap Mun Sim!!! Too bad i cant celebrate with you, so this will be your birthday gift from Malaysia.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CINDY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!!

I LOVE YOU SOOOOOOOO MUCH CINDY YAP!!! May your life be filled with joy and may you find your mr right soon :)

And and and come back soon aye. I'm missing you heaps here. Your present will be all the way from taiwan aye!!

Keep trying

:(

There is one person in this world that means a lot to me. She loves me so much that i know i'll never be able to repay her love for me in my entire life. But now when i see her, she's so weak and lifeless. She had lost the zest in her and i dont want to look at her because each time i look at her, my heart aches.

I WANT TO CRY

NOBODY UNDERSTANDS HOW I FEEL

If i could, i rather i'm the sick person and she the healthy person.

Why is life so difficult??

Why do i have to face sad things in life??

Why happy things seem so far away from me??

I need God, i need His comfort and i need His peace.

I WANT TO CRYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

Movie therapy

Okay, i've not been spending my holidays wisely. I havent started on my bio revision and i'm just done with 2 questions of maths. What's with my holiday resolution that i must finish revising bio and maths?? Arrghh, i blame nobody but myself.

I'm fast becoming a couch potato, watching dramas after dramas and movies after movies. Just today alone, i've finish watching 17 again, Hannah Montana : The Movie and Harry Potter 6. I'm feeling so guilty now for wasting almost 7 hours just watching movies alone but hey, arent holidays supposed to be relaxing and not so stressful?? I quote from swee yeng : watch first, revision tomorrow (i've modified it, hers is eat first, lose weight tomorrow)

I totally recommend you guys to watch 17 again and Hannah Montana. In fact, these 2 shows made my day. To tell you the truth, i'm so worry about my exams. My monthly test results are not good and i know that if i dont put in extra effort this time, i''ll have to say bye bye to B1. But i just cant seem to find the motivation to study. My concentration level is so low that i can be easily distracted by anything. To make matters worse, my relatives are all back and my mind is so preoccupied with spending time with them.

Ok, i'm out of topic. These 2 movies tell the importance of family and friends in your life. You may have a successful career, lots of money but you cant buy the love of family and true friends. Your family members are always here for you no matter what happens and when you fall, they're the ones who catch and lift you up. Friends are totally important too. True friends never leaves you, just like the ones in 17 again and Hannah Montana, they go all out for their friends, never leaving their friends behind.

This part is a little bit personal but i just feel like typing out here. Travis, the guy who like miley in hannah montana reminds me of a friend. In Hannah Montana, travis accepts miley for who she is and loves the real her, not hannah montana. I have a friend who is just like travis. This special person loves me for who i am and has seen the worst part of me. Yet, this person never leaves me but constantly encourage me to be who i am and teach me how to love others and not judge others. I'm ever so grateful for you, thank you friend :)

I tell you i'm not so stressed after watching these movies. Movies can be such a good therapy for stressful people like me. I know that i'll always have my family and friends' back so i'm gonna start my revision now and whatever my outcome is, i'll leave it to God.

Happy holidays people!!! Dont stress yourself too much and remember to take some time off for some good movies.

I'll end with this quote

LIFE'S A CLIMB BUT THE VIEW IS GREAT

Thank You

I'm feeling so blessed and encouraged right now. Today during cell group, we discussed about how to help people. And after discussing, my cell leader, grace, gave us each a paper and asked us to write our names on it. Then we have to pass it to the person on our left and write something encouraging on the paper. Seriously at first i did not know what to write. Even though we had been in the same cell for almost a year, i do not know many of them personally. We do laugh and talk to each other but its different from the time in joy cell where we really share personal things with each other. Anyways, after getting our papers back, grace asked us to pray for the person next to us and the prayer time was truly awesome.

I guess u guys wont be able to see the writings on the paper so here's what my beloved cell members wrote for me :)

Kerry: Though at times things might not be the way you want it to be, but God will always be there for you. To guide you and to lead you. I love you!!! =)

Jian Ai: Dear Sabrina, =p you are fearfully and wonderfully made. May you continue to be a blessing to all around you with your sweet smile and you very adorable ,approachable character. God bless you!!

Grace: Hey gal, thank you for coming to cell. I'm glad to see you coming despite of your business. You are a joy to me and i'm blessed to have known you. Remember this verse, Seek ye first the kingdom of God and all will be added unto you! Continue to seek, serve and follow Christ!

Yen Fong: Hey Sabrina, just remember that in everything that you do, God will always be there for you and God will help you through in whatever situation you face. Just continue serving God no matter how busy and occupied you are. Keep the smile =). God loves you

Khian Lim: Haha! Going taiwan right, buy somethings for me! Erm, try to come for morning prayer and pray for CF! God bless you in your future studies. Enjoy you form 6 life and taiwan trip.

Aunt Ivy: Walk closely with God for He never leaves those who walk with Him! Trust our mighty God!

It is encouraging messages and people like these that reminds me i have an ALMIGHTY GOD who cares and loves me. Thank you guys for your wonderful messages. I'll always remember what you wrote for me and lets continue to rock on for God!!!

TAIWAN :)

As some of you may know, i applied for a student exchange program to taiwan few months ago. I did not put much hope on it because i posted the form on the eve of the closing date. I was not even sure whether the form will reach the organisers on time anot. Moreover there are only limited space for this exchange program, so even if the from reaches the organisers, you are still not guaranteed a place for the program.

I had always wanted to go to taiwan. Maybe its because i watched too many taiwanese drama or maybe because JOE CHENG is there. Hahahaha. So can you imagine how i felt yesterday when they sent me a notice telling me i was selected for the student exchange program?? By the way i was in church at that time. I literally jump in front of my friends and shouted YES man!!! I was so happy that i kept on going around telling all my friends that im going taiwan :) But the sad part is i'm going to miss youth camp and christmas this year. I havent missed a single camp since i started going youth and i've joined every single youth christmas presentation. Sigh, i know i'm going to miss a lot of fun but going to taiwan is a once in a life time chance too. So you guys have fun in youth camp while i have fun in taiwan. Wahahaha

I'm starting to imagine what is awaiting me in taiwan

I imagine myself walking on the streets in taipei, bumping into Joe Cheng and he fell in love with me and ask me to be his wife and live happily ever after with him in Taiwan. ( ignore me)

I imagine myself walking in night markets eating lots and lots of food until my tummy bulge.

I imagine myself seeing sunrise in alisan.

I imagine myself sitting bullet train, looking at beautiful scenery along the way.

I imagine myself at aboriginal villages dancing with them and learn more about their culture.

I imagine myself celebrating my first white christmas with my group mates.

I imagine myself buying lots and lots of souvenirs for family and friends.

I imagine myself wearing layers and layers of clothing until i look like a dumpling.

I imagine myself making lots of new friends through this trip.

I imagine myself shopping like rebecca bloomwood of confessions of a shopaholic.

I inagine myself starring at the beautiful sky in taiwan.

I imagine myself seeing hots guys surf in ken ding.

I imagine myself at the top of 101 tower.

I imagine myself marvel at the beauty of God's creation in taroko gorge.

I imagine dipping myself in hotsprings.

I imagine myself falling in love with everything in taiwan.

TAIWAN HERE I COME <3

My Best Friend

it was year 2005 when i first saw her

short, petite, and skinny was my first impression of her

never would i imagine that we would be friends as she has her own friends by that time

while i was just a student who had just transferred to her class

friendly was the word to describe her

the first word she said to me was FATTY

unique, surprised and shocked

that was how i felt at that time

but in time to come we became closer and closer to each other

and we even became roommates during our first trip together

year 2005---close friends

second year, we became deskmates

to be honest, i was a little intimidated when u asked me

what if i bored you? what if we argue? what if you find that i'm not a suitable deskmate??

many of these things came into my mind

but in the end we clicked so well

we share so many passions together

from singing, movies till talking about our crushes

everyday our school life were filled with never ending topics

you helped me when i encountered friendship problems

standing by my side always supporting me

encouraging me when i did badly for my mid year test

year 2006 ---deskmates

third year, we wondered whether we'll be in the same class anymore

anxiously we waited for the outcome

in the end we became deskmates again

i open myself to you more and you shared many things with me

we started to talk about our dreams

me the doctor and you the accountant

i would always whine to you about my sucky add maths

and you would always guide me patiently

we had our fair share of arguments too

times when we dont see each other eye to eye

but in the end those arguments never brought us down and tear us apart

deep in my heart i know i've found a true friend

year 2007---best friend

fourth year, our last year sitting together

i started to appreciate you more and more

the many crazy things we did together in class

getting scolded by teacher together

sleeping during bm lesson

eating during est

are truly unforgettable

good times passes by so quickly

without us realising it was time to leave school

and it meant going our own pathways from now on

year 2008---best best friend forever

now, we are studying in different places

chasing dreams we had told each other

yet our friendship remains as close as ever

i'll still call you to tell you what's happening here

and you'll update me with your life in kl

even though we are so far apart

i can still sense the closeness like those times in secondary school

thank you for always being by my side whenever things happen

you've seen me cry like a baby

whine like an old lady

get angry like a mad lady

and still love me for who i am

i'm ever grateful for finding such a great friend like you

i can foresee the day when we both find our mr right and be each other's bridesmaid

listening to each other saying our marriage vows

shedding tears of joy for each other =]

but we'll still go pasar malam, have pillow talk sessions and sing k together for sure

i love you so much chew swee anne!!!

remember you'll always have a shoulder to cry on when you need one

good times bad times i'll always be here for you as you've been here for me

all the best in everything you do and do take good care of yourself in kl

ME + YOU = BFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

Wonderful Holidays

HOLIDAYS, why are you leaving me so fast?? Dont you know that i love you so much?? Please dont leave me alone again =(

I've had the most WONDERFUL holidays for the past one week. Every single day of my holidays are so well spent. I got to spend some quality time with my family in penang, eating lots and lots of awesome food until my tummy bulged, played at the beach with the Saw family, laughing till my stomach hurts at our lame jokes and the most important thing is i got to know my father more.

During the last day of family camp, after the speaker had finished preaching, there was a sharing session where we can share with each other what we had learned or experienced during the camp. My dad shared something which moved me to tears. My dad came from a very big family. His dad was an autocratic person and he gambled a lot. Whenever he's in a bad mood, all his children will not have food to eat and due to addiction to gambling, they had to sell off the house and move to a smaller house. Being raised in such manner, my dad lacks a fatherly figure since young and he only looks up to his mum. However things changed after he came to know the Lord. My dad forgave his dad and he apologised publicly during the sharing session to my brother for not knowing how to treat him as a son sometimes. I cried after hearing my dad's sharing. It takes great courage for a man to say sorry to his son publicly and my dad did that. Before the sharing, i never knew that my dad went through so many things during his childhood, now i have a deeper understanding towards my dad and my perspective towards my dad changed.

" It takes a boy to be a father, but it takes a man to father a child"

On tuesday, i went pasar malam with my besties. Despite not eating anything due to my horrible tooth extraction which required stitching at the end, i truly enjoyed walking around and looking at them eating happily. Later,we went to lulu's house for pillow talking session and we had so much fun talking to each other. It's been a long time since we talk like there's no tomorrow, talking from 11 something till 4 something. And on wednesday we went to kbox. Having my besties around is seriously FUN FUN FUN!!!

On thursday i went for my class' bio trip. We went to so many places and everywhere we went we were the noisiest group. We took loads of silly pictures, marvel at the beauty of boh tea plantation, and we worked together to make our steamboat dinner a success. This trip has indeed brought us closer to each other and i found out that most of my classmates like to play cards and mahjong too. More kaki to play next time. Haha.

I got to spent some quality time with weimin too. I havent have heart-to-heart talk with her since ages ago so to have one with her in camerons is definitely wonderful. I'm so glad i managed to clear some of my confusion and i'm finally guilt free now!! Weimin, always remember that we'll always be by your side supporting you and loving you. I have faith in you that you'll overcome it and emerge as a VICTOR!!

GO GO JIA YOU!!!

3 more days till the holidays end and i already have plans for these 3 days. I can see kbox, pillow talk, bbq and tgv waving at me. Ahh, what a wonderful holiday.

Updates

Ok, i've cut my hair, extracted 1 tooth, 2 more next week, and i'm counting down to my 1 week holidays!!!
But first, my exams. Arrghh, i dont want to fail my maths and disappoint my teacher. She has so high hope in us that makes me wanna do well but i know i'm not good in maths. Maths, will you be my BFF for just 1 week??

19.08.09

8.15-10.15 Pengajian Am

11.30-1.00 Chemistry

20.08.09

8.15-10.15 MATHS

11.30-1.00 Biology

21.08.09

8.15-10.15 MUET

And after this, its holidays!!! Let me tell you what my plans are for this holidays. Even thinking about my holidays makes me super duper excited. After finishing Muet test on friday, L6B1 will be going for a karaoke session in kbox!! WOOHOO!!! Seriously cant wait to see all my classmates act like crazy people in the room and maybe we'll practice our Grease moves and sing Summer Night together. TELL ME MORE TELL ME MORE~~~

On saturday, i'll be going for my church's family camp in penang till monday. The theme for this camp is My Father's Love and Ps Vincent Lau is the speaker for this camp :) And and and, i'm going with kerry's family and sunny's family so it'll be so much fun. It'll be like those good times where we'll talk non stop in the car until the adults have to put earplugs. Haha. The adults even planned to start our journey earlier so that we have enough time to go shopping and scout for good food. Such clever adults =]

After coming back on monday, i'll have my 2 teeths extracted to make way for my braces. On wednesday, i'll go for VAD7 farewell which i predict will be quite fun as well as most of my classmates are going.

The highlight of this holiday

L6B1 CLASS TRIP!!!

We'll be going to camerons for our 2 days 1 night trip and we'll be visiting some farms, boh tea plantation and jungle trekking And we'll make our own steamboat for dinner too =] Hopefully through this trip we'll get to know each other more and bond with each other. I reckon i'm not close to some of my classmates so i'll use this opportunity to get closer to them.

My besties in kl are coming back for the merdeka holidays too!! So it'll be a time of meeting up and updating each other with infos. Gosh, i miss them so badly and i cant wait to laugh and talk with them =]

Holidays will you come to me faster and exams will you leave me faster??

HOLIDAYS I LOVE YOU!!!

Happy birthday xiao zhu :)

My first birthday post :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ZIYI

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!

Happy birthday my dearest deskmate!! I'm so blessed to have you as my deskmate this year!! Thank you for always being there with me, helping me with my never ending homework and laughing with me.

And so now i shall award you with the BEST FRIEND AWARD OF YEAR 2009.

Haha, love you so much dear friend!!! May God bless you with good health and in everything you do including our much feared --- maths. MUAXX MUAXX

Short or long?

Should i cut my hair short ??? i need opinions!!!

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Did you realise 123456789 happened today??
At 12:34:56 seconds on 07/08/09, you'll see 123456789 coming together and it'll not be happening in our lifetime again. I wanted to do a countdown and i even persuaded my friends to do it with me but in the end all of us forgot and we ended up listening to pn lau teaching about electron microscope. Haha. There goes 123456789. Bye bye.

This week has been a hectic week for me. Exams are coming soon but i'm still slacking. My homeworks are not up to date (I reckon my homework is even taller than mount Himalaya) and i cant understand what my chemistry teacher is teaching in class. To make it worse, i heard some news that broke my heart and the guilt that came with it took my attention for the past few days.

I miss school life in amc. The days spent in amc were the happiest moments in my life. The eating in class, sleeping in class, copy homework from friends, gossip about teachers, laughing non stop in class, burning midnight oil, ponteng class moments are truly unforgettable. How i wish i could turn back time and relive my secondary school life again. That's never going to happen but i'm somehow i still hope that it'll happen to me. Maybe i had too much beautiful memories of my school life.

I miss sitting with anne. She's the best deskmate in this whole wide world and we share so many things in common. She's always there to listen to my problems and will advice me like my older sis. I miss having nicole and hao hao sitting in front of us. I miss turning to the back to talk with wei min and ziyi. I miss running over to the other row and talk with lulu. I miss having personal talks with kai ning. I miss laughing over the jokes that fiona, kerlee and pei made. I miss going to the canteen thinking about what to eat for recess. I miss holding my breath before i enter the toilet. I miss singing in choir. I miss going tuition with them in those crowded tuition centres. I miss having movie sessions during est period. I miss getting 7D for add maths with ziyi and wei min. I miss how we share our dreams with each other and strive towards our goal. I miss the time when we went for our bio trip. I miss the time when 5s6 stunned everyone with our dance during dinner night. I MISS EVERYTHING IN AMC AND MOST IMPORTANTLY I MISS MY DEAREST FRIENDS.

How i wish i could turn back time, even if its only for a day??

I MISS HER

I MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!

Can the old wei min come back please??

E.M.B.A.R.A.S.S.E.D

I DID THE MOST EMBARASSING THING IN SCHOOL TODAY!!!

Today during school assembly, as usual the prefects will go round to check our fingernails. Being the lazy me, i did not cut my fingernails and when the prefects started to check, i quickly borrowed from kerlee her nail clipper to cut my nails. When i was cutting halfway, karleng who was sitting at the back of me told me she havent cut her nails too. So we decided that both of us will cut only our right hand fingernails. So when the prefect came, i put my left hand into my bag and pretended that i was busy finding something. I thought this idea will work as it worked last week. But that prefect was not satisfied after he checked my right hand, so he asked me to take out my left hand and showed it to him. I was so reluctant to take out my hand but in the end i took out and showed it to him. He asked me to go to the back and cut my fingernails before i can return to my seat. My friends who saw what happened laughed so hard at my stupidity and according to my friends, even the prefect himself laughed quietly. Imagine how embarassed i am and my friends kept on laughing at me for the whole day on school. Now even the other classes know what happened to me during assembly. Arrghh, all my image gone because of my S.T.U.P.I.D.I.T.Y!!!

Good things always come in pairs but bad things also do come in pairs. As if one embarassed moment is not enough, i embarassed myself again in the afternoon. YES is the initial of somebody and one of my friend told us that YES is her ideal guy so we always make fun of her using his name. When i was walking past koklun today, i said very loudly YES in front of him. Never did i realised that YES was standing beside him. Being utterly embarassed, i ran back to my classroom and told my friends and they started to laugh at me AGAIN. And the most embarassing part was that YES knows we call him YES, so he knows that i'm talking about him. OMG!!!

Anyways, i'm going to my school library later and so-called study with pei, kerlee and ziyi. With them around, i think the library is going to be a WEE bit noisy. HAHA. Although i make myself so embarassed today, i seriously had so much fun laughing with them at my own stupidity. I guess stupidity is my new BFF now =]

Thinking of YOU

你是一個失去以後就會覺得後悔的類型的人，所以你最唸唸不忘的人不是別人，是最近的失去的人。例如上一個戀人，你會因為失去而懊惱不已，但凡是因為你自己的原因而失去的人，你就會一直記挂著他們，卻忽略了在你身邊的人。經常會顧此失彼，你是在交往和分開的時候沒有想到，分開後才知道自己多麼在乎的人

You are a person who will regret after you have lost something, so the most unforgettable person in you life is the one you have recently lost. Just like your previous bf/gf, you will be very sad after you have lost him/her, but if the main reason of them leaving you is you yourself, you will always be thinking of them, but you tend to ignore those who are around you. You will only appreciate that person once you have lose them and not during the time when you have them in your life.

I did this test in facebook just now called who is the person that is unforgettable in you life. The answer is somewhat quite true. Now i must learn to appreciate those people around me and not appreciating them after they have left me. Life is so short so i truly believe that everyone in my life, be it best friends or just a passerby are angels that God has given unto me to take care of me. So people i just want to take this opportunity to tell you that i truly appreciate you and thank you for walking into my life.

P.S feeling sick for the past 2 days. I dont want to go to school tomorrow =[

What if ??

What if during the first days of school i had not sit with ziyi?
What if you sat with her??
Will our friendship be more closer than now?

What if that day i sat with kerlee and you had not come up late, will the result be different??
What if i listened to you and insisted to ziyi that i heard you telling her that you want to sit with her??

If everything went as what we had planned that day, i wonder will you be happier than now?
Now you are further and further away from us and somehow i feel that it is my fault.
Everytime i look at you, a sense of guiltiness will creep inside me, telling me that i'm the one who had caused all these things to happen.

I always wanted to ask you " are you happy now?" but i dont have the guts to ask you
You are the bestest sister and bestest friend i ever had.
We share the same birthday, born in the same hospital, same class for 5 years and even share the same bag.
To me, you are like my eldest sister who understands me inside out.
Even when i didnt tell you what i was going through at that time, you can always feel what i'm feeling and a call to your house will never fail to lift me up.

Last time when i need a shoulder to cry on, you'll be the first on my mind.
Now when i'm sad, i still think of you but i wonder whether we still have the "telepathy" to know how each other feel.
People always say distance does not matter if you have that person in your heart
Even though you are so near to me, our hearts are not close anymore.
I do not know what is happening to your life, our conversations are brief and we do not share our ups and downs with each other anymore =[

You'll still be my best friend no matter what happens and i know you feel the same too.
Maybe what we need now is time.
I sincerely believe that time heals and God in His own timing will make a way for us.
We always celebrate our birthday together and you once told me you hope that we'll celebrate together for years and years to come.
I promise you that for the many years to come, you'll always be the one whom i'll celebrate my birthday with.

Dear sis, i love you so much, much more than anyone could imagine. You had helped me in so many ways and without you, i'll not be what i am today. You'll always have my fullest support and the memories that we share together will always be in my heart. =]

once in a lifetime

I find a friend

who touches not only my heart

but also my soul

once in a lifetime

I discover someone

who stands beside me

not over me

once in a lifetime

if you are lucky

you find someone

as I have found you

Very special people

we can be ourselves with

talk with, laugh with

hope with, believe with

The many faces of B1 students

Today we B1 students had 1 biology practical and 1 chemistry practical to do. For the bio practical, each of us have to bring 1 potato and cut them into 15 potato strips (6cm x 4mm x 4mm) for the osmosis experiment. Well i learnt a few lessons from this bio practical

1st lesson: When the teacher ask you to bring 1 potato, dont trust her. 1 potato is for those people who are pro in cutting potatoes. I WASTED 5 POTATOES FOR THIS EXPERIMENT!! I can cook up a potato meal with 5 potatoes man. So wasteful. But partially its my fault because i didnt know how to cut the potatoes. I was either cutting them too short or too thick. So in the end i had 2 borrow potatoes from my friends as my potatoes are totally unusable ( my potatoes are like dwarfs compared to all those giant potatoes that my friends bought)

2nd lesson: Always build a good relationship with your classmates as classmates are very important when you're not good at doing experiments. After the teacher saw me wasting potatoes like pipe water, she asked my classmate calvin nga to help me. He was so nice to help me cut all those potatoes and when i said i 'll belanja him sushi tomorrow, he said " Help people no need to ask for return de" Aww, such good classmates i have!!! And the two guys in front of me was also nice enough to provide me with blades and potatoes when they only have 2 . In the end they have to share 1 blade while i share the other blade with ziyi.

After recess, we went for our chem practical and we ended up doing crazy stuffs in the lab. We mixed different chemicals together without knowing what the chemical was. One classmate mixed chlorine with iron (III) chloride and the whole lab was filled with chlorine gas. Oh by the way, we dare to do this kind of things because our teacher went away for PIBG meeting. Haha. Even the lab assistant was scared of us. I never thought B1 students can be so playful and naughty. My perspection towards my class is always is geng geng people who study 24/7 and can memorise the whole chem book with just one look. Haha. i'm just exaggerating.

Now i'm beginning to like my class more and more. B1 students can also be playful while studying hard at the same time. Cant wait for our class trip and hopefully during that bonding time, we'll get to know each other more and be as close as a family.

LOVE LOVE LOVE LBB1

POPO AND GONGGONG GET WELL SOON

Today when i was walking out of the school, Mr Hee stopped me and asked me why i was not paying attention during his class. He said i'm not the usual me which is always so active and cheerful, now i'm always sleepy, tired and not attentive during his class. Lots of things had happen over the last week. Got the news that popo had mild stroke after i returned from canteen day. When i went back and visit her, i had to control myself from crying. Her eyes and mouth had slanted and she cant talk properly. Popo has always been a very healthy person. She never had any major sickness before and the thought of her having stroke never came into my mind. I always tell people that i'm blessed with healthy grandparents but now both of them are sick. Gonggong had his cataract operation today and thank God everything went well smoothly. Popo is going for her CT scan tomorrow and hopefully the doctors will be able to diagnose what is going on in her brain.

Since i heard about the news, i couldnt sleep properly at night. I will always be awaken in the middle of the night, thinking about my grandparents. And when i got awaken, i will always pray to God asking Him to protect my grandparents and bless them with long life. However, the fear of losing them is just too much for me to contain. I'm afraid that they wont be here for my graduation, my wedding and many more family events to come. I realise that as i'm growing older, they are ageing too. One day they'll have to leave me but i'm still not prepared to face this kind of situation yet.

My popo and gonggong love me very much. Since young i have been staying with them, following them wherever they go and they never fail to shower me with their love and care. As i grew older, my parents brought me back to stay with them but i'll still visit them everyday. But due to hectic school life and never ending homeworks, i start visiting them once a week. At first i'll call them quite frequently but as time goes by, the calls became less and less. Still they'll call me and ask me how am i doing in school but i've always taken for granted that they'll be here for a long time. Sometimes i spend time hanging out with my friends rather than going back to visit them because i had the mindset of "i still can visit them next week".

Now, the only wish i have is that they'll come to know the Lord and may God grant them good health so that i can see them for a longer time. I thank God for helping me make the right decision of staying here and do my form 6 because nothing else in this world beats having my family around me. =]

POPO AND GONG GOING I LOVE BOTH OF YOU VERY MUCH!!! MAY BOTH OF YOU GET WELL SOON AND WE'LL GO ON TRIPS TOGETHER!!!

When SELFLOVINGS gather together

Pure madness is the word to describe our outing today. Been laughing non stop from 7.30 till 2-30, starting from eating dim sum, going amc canteen day till lunch. Wonder what will happen to our jaws if this outing continue till 12 midnight?? All of us will be going back home with our jaws malfunction due to excessive laughing and probably our faces will be smaller too according to anne. =)

Woke up at 6.45 today and went to Foo San at about 7.15 to meet my besties over there. Its so nice to see everyone of us sitting in a round table eating dim sum together. Seriously felt like a family gathering rather than just a normal gathering. We talked and laughed non stop, covering multiple topics such as imitating teacher, funny things that happen in school and FOOD. Surprisingly, we didnt eat much (most of the time was spent laughing rather than eating), and we even have to tapao food which is so uncommon when you have kerlee around. Haha.

Later we went for amc canteen day. Went with high hopes that we'll enjoy ourselves there playing horror house, maze or just walking around but got rather disappointed. In the end we decided to just sit and i cant even use up my rm 10 coupon. The biggest attraction that we found was the balloons and the uncle was so nice to let us take pictures with the balloons =]]]]

Lunch was the most exciting part of the day. Imagine yourself sitting in the room for 2 hours and each time when you want to eat your food, somebody will just spill out a joke and all your energy will be used to laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh. When you have these kind of friends around, you'll never get bored because sometime someone will do something outrageous and all of us will roar into laughter. Thank goodness the person in charge provided us with a room, if not i think no customer will ever dare to eat in that restaurant anymore when they see a bunch of crazy girls laughing hysterically at some jokes only they will understand. And this is what i like the most about my friends, we laugh no matter where we are without caring about our image and i'm truly blessed to have found them. =]]

Didint take much photo today, pics are with anne. And by the way, sam tet brass band won the band competition. Congrats STBB!!

SABRINA IS SOOOOO HAPPY CAUSE SHE HAS THE MOST AMAZING FRIENDS ON EARTH!!!

I TOTALLY HEART SELFLOVING!!!!

GOOD FRIENDS =]

First blog post =]

Had been thinking of creating a blog since form 5 but due to serious procrastination and laziness, this thought of mine had never been a successful one until today. So here am i writing my first post at 12.15 am, with nothing in mind.

Well, my desktop computer was struck down by lightning 2 weeks ago so havent been checking my emails and facebook for 2 weeks. So today when i finally checked my mails, i got an email from nicole. Am so touched seriously when i read it. It really feels so good when you know that even though friends may be far apart, they still care for you and never fail to encourage you. They are always keeping an eye on you, giving you their fullest support whenever you need them.

Life is brief but BLISS. Blissful life doesnt mean having a stress-free life, but when you have a great God, loving family and wonderful, joyful friends around you, no matter how hard or difficult life is, it still can be BEAUTIFUL and BLISSFUL.

Seriously cant wait to meet up with all my besties tomorrow. Its been a long time since we yak and laugh like nobody business and i'm so happy that tomorrow we'll be doing that again. Haha.

Foo San dim sum and amc canteen day here i come!!!