Wake Up Call

I finally understand what is the meaning of 欲哭无泪. Its when you're sad until you've reach a state where even crying is not enough to express the sadness in your heart. I know maybe this is just a small thing to others but to me, this is the first time i've experience such thing.

I know i cant blame anyone but blame only myself for the outcome today. I know well that i can do better but i just didnt perform. I just let those chances slip away from my hands. People have been telling me that stpm is the most difficult exam but i always assume that i can use the same attitude when i sat for spm towards stpm. And now i learn that the answer is wrong, but the price of learning this lesson is costly.

I dont want to leave my friends. I love studying and laughing together with them. I tried so hard not to cry in class today as i dont want them to see me cry again.

I know this is a wake up call for me. This is not the end yet. My ultimate goal is to succeed in stpm. I still have one more year to work on my studies and this time i will not play a fool anymore. One fall is enough and i do not want to fall for the second time.

Like what Anne said, i'm lucky that i have this wake up call. At least it made me realise that i need to buck up and not be too over confident. I know i can do it. I've conquer my 2 most feared subject- physics and add maths in the past and i'm sure i can conquer stpm as well.

For my friends reading this post, please do your friend here a little favour. I give you full authority to scold me or whack me whenever you guys see me slack. Please remind me to study and complete my homework AT HOME.

I'll indulge in my sadness for one day only. Tomorrow will be a fresh start for me. Even though things will be a little different from now on, i know i can overcome it because i have the love of God, family and friends in my heart.

Sabrina Leong, you can do it!!! Jia you jia you jia you!!!

Random Post

This quote made my day :)

Fly fly let it fly

Fly fly let it fly

let it be gone with the winds

let it fly to a place where it'll find its rightful owners

i do not need you now

family and friends are all i need now

maybe someday i'll need you

but FREEDOM is what i need now

i'm tired of waiting for answers

time and time i keep on waiting

but that time never come

I've decided to let everything go

I do not want to think of these things anymore

I want to see myself happy

I want to be independent

I want to love everyone who cares for me

And not to let them worry about me

Nobody knows what lies in the future

But i know people i love will be there for me

For a very very long time

And that's all i need

~Fly fly let it fly~

03.11.09

On 03.11.91

two babies came into this world

each with different size and character

but equally lovely and adorable

And a girl name Sabrina had the privilledge of knowing both of them

which impacted her in different ways

MISS LOO YEE KUAN

You're the best listener i've ever known in my entire life.

Thanks for always bearing with me on the phone for hours

listening to my rants and never ending problems.

Thanks for being my beloved TIME SIPPER and my movie companion.

Thanks for always being there for me even though at times i'm quite unreasonable

Thanks for always zat-ing me so that i can work hard on my maths

Thanks for always driving me here and there

Thanks for the laughter you've have brought into my life

Thanks for your advice on many things

Thanks for teaching me so many stuffs

Thanks for always being there to talk, laugh, and cry with me

MISS FOO KER LEE

Hope you like the cake and the surprise today :)

It's such a joy sitting in front of you,

always bringing me laughter and happiness

I'll always remember the encouraging words you spoke to me when i'm really down

I look up to you as my jie jie who bring so much joy to all the people around

cheering them up and lifting them up

Thanks for always helping me out in class when i'm stressed out

Thanks for always teaching me maths and chem

Thanks for always sharing you food with me

Thanks for being sucha awesome secretary

Thanks for being a CUTE, PRETTY, BOUNCING TENNIS BALL

HAPPY SWEET 18TH to the both of you!!!

You two had been such a great blessing to me

and i'm ever grateful in having both of you as my friend

All the best in everything you do

and you'll always have my fullest support

Though we may walk different paths in the future,

i'll still want to be there for your every birthday

Stay pretty, cheerful and slim always

Haha

LOVE LOVE LOVE FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART

BIG HEAD ROCKSSSSSSSS

FAT GIRL ROCKSSSSSSSS

p.s. lulu, even though i do not know what you're going through right now, i sincerely hope that you'll be fine :)

The ♥ Between Us

5 MONTHS AGO~~

We were just mere strangers. Yet fate brought us together when the 30 of us were placed in a class called L6B1. My first impression of this class was: " Yer, why place me with these group of people who dont like to talk de? And and and Calvin Nga, who is famous in amc for his gayness is in this class too!! I'm going to request to change to B2. "

At first, our class was so quiet that when we (kerlee, karleng, ziyi and i) laughed, we could hear echos of our laughter. Very often i'll tell ziyi :" Look at B2, they always laugh de, why our class so dead ? Everybody busy studying we busy laughing. " Teachers who entered our class branded us as geeks with no life except studying, studying and studying. Everyone on B1 seem so engross in studying, there was so little interaction between all of us.

NOW~~

During these few months, we've been through so much as a class together. I've met so many awesome classmates who never fail to make me laugh and cheer me up when i'm super duper sad. I still remembered few weeks ago when i cried in class, you guys just crowded around my table and surrounded me with words of encouragement, support and LOVE. Never would i imagine our friendship will be so strong even though the time we spent together was just merely 5 months.

Last time, i used to wonder what will things be like if i chose to go to inti instead of form 6. Will i be happier in kl, without my family and friends, starting everything all over again, making new friends along the way, finish my A-levels and go overseas?? I often ask myself why did i chose form 6 even after i had made up my mind to study in inti. Even after i started studying in sam tet, i will still cry at night, regretting for not going to inti. I used to feel so left out in class, even though i may laugh non stop in class, but deep inside i still cant get used to the people in class and the environment.Somehow, God placed in my class great friends that i never thought i can find in sam tet. As time grew by, i got more and more familiar with my classmates and those people whom i thought were very quiet turned out to be as talkative as me.

I love the times when the whole class roar in laughter over jokes usually made by calvin or kerlee, calling each other BFF when someone brings food to school, joining competitions just to save on class fund, gathering around the table steamboating in camerons, encouraging each other during exams, getting scolded by our dearest teacher for skipping tutorials, taking pictures and videos in class, teaching albert wear contact lens, being malat for our dance, cheering each other up when someone is down, being the noisiest B1 class in pn lau's history, singing in class, walking from one row to another just to blow water and sharing many more happy moments together.

Without us realising it, L6B1 has become a family and not just a class anymore. Each one of you will be my dearest family member and no matter what happens, L6B1 will always be L6B1 in our hearts. I'm so glad that i made this decision of doing form 6, if not i wouldnt have meet this group of people whom i love so dearly now. When people ask me now whether i'm happy doing form 6, my answer is definitely a YES.

To my dearest family members:

We have accomplished so much as a class together this year and we'll accomplish even more as a FAMILY next year. We will be BFF with chem, pa, maths, bio and muet together and make everybody proud of B1.

LOVE LOVE LOVE ALL OF YOU SO MUCH!!!!

L6B1 ROCKSSSSSSSSSSS :)

P.S : for another version of L6B1 post, please refer to calvin's blog :)

Happy Birthday Cindy

We have been friends for 11 years, classmates for 5 years and best friends forever and ever. Even though now u're in Australia and i'm in Ipoh, u'll always be my bestest friend. Gosh i cant believe we had been through so many arguments and cold war but we are still the best of friends no matter what happens. Thank you for always making me laugh at your cold jokes and helping me when other people bully me. I will always remember the good times we spent together, not forgetting the moments when you come to my house and study but end up talking. Haha.

Today is your big day dear Cindy Yap Mun Sim!!! Too bad i cant celebrate with you, so this will be your birthday gift from Malaysia.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CINDY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!!

I LOVE YOU SOOOOOOOO MUCH CINDY YAP!!! May your life be filled with joy and may you find your mr right soon :)

And and and come back soon aye. I'm missing you heaps here. Your present will be all the way from taiwan aye!!

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