my besties

They are angels God sent into my life
and i love them more than anything else
they are the most sincere, true and best friends i've ever had
and i'll do anything to make them smile

thank you is never enough
laughter is never absent
love is always in our hearts

i smiled,
as i look back at my photo album collection
good old days, better ones to come
for me to look back and smile,
in the future :D

dear someone

i dont like arguments.
arguments make relationships turn bad
it makes people feel miserable,
not forgetting the tears that flow and the anger within after each argument.

no matter how hard we try to avoid having arguments,
sometimes arguments just come without us noticing.
i hate the moment of cold war after every argument.
supposedly we were best friends before the argument
and after that we are blaming the other party for the argument.
when nobody wants to back down, nothing is solved.

i wish i never uttered those words that may had hurt you
it was never intentional
because i really treat you as my best friend.
i wish you had put yourself in my shoes,
understanding what i've been through
and just give me your support.

you're angry and i'm angry too
but what's the point of getting mad with each other?
we'll only get more miserable day by day

i dont know how to solve this
i wish we never had this argument
i promised myself never to have any argument with you
but i failed to keep my promise

sorry, i never mean to hurt you
i treasure you more than anything else
and to see you hurt is the last thing i would wanna do
can we just forget the past and move on?

anger and tears are temporary
while the good times are forever in my heart.
let us just appreciate the last few months before we embark on our dreams
no more arguments, just laughter.

sincerely from me

有你真好

每当伤心,
感觉自己最无助的时候,
你都会好像守护天使般出现,
擦干我的眼泪,
用你最特别的方式安慰我,
让我即使伤心也会觉得很窝心.

你很特别,
你很优秀,
你总记得我说过的每一样东西,
你总是有办法让我笑,
也有很多时候让我很生气, 很想哭,
但能认识你真的很好.

谢谢你,
因为你
我不害怕,
因为我知道永远会有一个人在我最需要他时出现,
一个在电话里叫我放声大哭,
尽他所能让我开心的人.

谢谢你,
有你真的很好 :)

有了你开心的
也都称心满意
咸鱼白菜也好好味
我与你永永共聚
分分钟需要你
你似是阳光空气

i have a dream

I have a dream
to be a missionary doctor
travelling all around the world helping people who are in need.

I have a dream
to study in somewhere else
to feel what is like to be away from home
and to experience the culture of other countries.

I have a dream
to bring joy to whoever i meet along my way
to be a friend that cares
and to be a listener that listens.

I have a dream
to live a meaningful life
waking up everyday to explore what life has to give me.

I have a dream
to set my foot again in taiwan
studying there and living there.

I have a dream
to serve my country
to make my country a better place to live in
because i love this country.

All these dreams of mine
I'M GONNA MAKE THEM A REALITY
though I might face setbacks and disappointments
I'M STILL GONNA MAKE THEM A REALITY
simply because I only live once.

when i have finally attain all these
i'll be able to say proudly that I'VE DID IT
and i know this day will come.

I JUST NEED TO BELIEVE IN MY SELF
AND CLAIM JEREMIAH 29:11

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper and not to harm you,
plans to give you a hope and a future.

it aint mission impossible
ITS DEFINITELY MISSION POSSIBLE :)

Specially for MISS TOO PEI PEI :)

On this very special day of yours,
i just want to say that it is a blessing having you in my life.
You brought joy, laughter, love and care into every of our lives,
making us feel belonged and loved.

I adore you for your love for friends,
for willing to spend hours listening to us when we are down.

I adore you for your commitment,
for always planning every outing without complaining and doing it out of love.

I adore you for your confidence,
for always knowing what to say when friends are in deep shit.

I adore you for your never-give-up attitude,
for your attitude encourages me.

And most importantly,
I adore you for who you are,
BECAUSE YOU ARE THE ONE AND ONLY TOO PEI PEI IN THIS WHOLE WIDE WORLD.

Never let anything bring you down,
for nothing is too difficult to be solved.
And never let anyone break your heart,
for the ones that love you will never thought of breaking your heart.

As you journey through another year of your life,
be reminded that you'll always have our support.
You'll never walk alone and whenever you fall,
we'll be there to wipe away your tears.
Whenever you are happy,
we'll be there to share your happiness.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEI PEI!!!
YOU ARE TRULY AN AWESOME FRIEND TO ME
TRUST IN YOURSELF AND FACE WHATEVER PROBLEMS THROWN TO YOU
WITH COURAGE AND POISE
BECAUSE I HAVE FAITH IN YOU THAT YOU CAN DO IT!

permaisuri/sailormoon/ceo/malat
YOU ROCK!!!

Realisation

Ever wonder how God answers prayers?? I always wonder whether my prayers will be heard by God or whether my prayers will just go in vain because i'm not a person who prays frequently. The time when i spend most in prayer will either be during exams or when i'm really desperate for help. I always lack that perseverance to pray, and when i do pray, i always whine to God about how bad my life is, question God when this misery will end.......... I complain, complain and complain and i just cant wait for all these " bad things" to end.

This morning i said a prayer while on my way walking to my classroom. I asked God to guide me through this path that i've chosen because i really do not have the motivation and strength to carry on anymore. I often think that what happened to me is the worst thing that can ever happen and the more i think the more i feel that i'm as useless as nothing.

I lost confidence in myself , looked down upon myself and my self esteem went down. Even though how hard i tried to motivate myself, after a while the initial hype will die down and i'll be back to the person who cries herself to sleep.

I despise this Sabrina. I hate showing to the world that i'm okay on the outside, joyful and always laughing but in fact i'm eating myself up with all the negative thoughts i put into my mind when i'm alone. I always ask people to pray for me, but i'm not praying for myself and doing anything to turn this whole thing around. All i do is to wait for people to pray for me and for God to work His miracle in my life.

God always works in ways we humans cannot understand and comprehend. God may not have turned my situation around but He let me realised that i am indeed blessed and fortunate than so many people in the world.

I may not have the brightest mind but God gave me passion to reach for my ambition.
I may not have the nicest body shape but God gave me good health.
I may not have a lot of money but God gave me a nice house to stay.
I may not have perfect parents but God gave me parents who love me unconditionally
I may not have what i want but God gave me a promise that His plan for me is always the best.

And guess how God spoke to me?? Through this quote that i saw from my friend's blog.


I believe its not pure coincidence that i saw this quote, but i choose to believe that God is speaking to me through these meaningful quotes.

I want to write it all down here because i want to remember today, that i once wrote something about the goodness of God so that when i'm lost in the future, i can find strength and courage from the past Sabrina.

From today onwards, i want to move on. I do not want to delve deeper and deeper into my problems. I want to set myself free. I want to be able to say proudly in the future that i'm an overcomer. I'm not a failure and i'll never be a failure.

And i believe in rainbow after the rain

So jia you Sabrina Leong, never let this passion in you die down and remember what you've wrote here today.

And remember to pray, pray and pray. For in prayer there comes miracles.

哭过就好了

终于哭了

没想到是在梦中哭了

把一切的委屈和压力都哭出来了

发现自己原来没有想象中坚强

有很多事情自己是没有能力做好的

开始怀疑自己了

开始不相信自己了

我讨厌这样的我

一个连自己都瞧不起自己的我

我曾几何时变成这样了呢?

那个充满自信的我去了哪里呢?

要相信难熬的始终会过去的

要坚信我是可以的

要自信的抬起胸膛, 告诉自己不要去在乎别人的冷嘲热讽

因为将来要做医生的人是不能那么软弱的

哭过就好了

是时候加油了

不要再让自己活在后悔和遗憾当中

笑一个吧!

这才是我认识的自己嘛!

and LOVE is what makes the world go round

Everybody needs LOVE.
LOVE is a cycle. When you choose to love the people around you, you get loved.
LOVING people doesnt mean just loving the people who love you.
it also means loving those whom you dislike or even hate
because LOVE never choose owners.


LOVE is never easy.
When you choose to LOVE, you are choosing to give.
But what makes LOVE so important??
because LOVE can make people do things beyond their strength
LOVE from parents, friends, lovers motivate us when things seem so bleak
and gives us new hope



Never underestimate the power of LOVE.
Choose to LOVE.
Just as how people have loved us even when we are unlovable.
We'll never know who needs LOVE until we choose to LOVE them
because LOVE is a many wonderful thing.
It has the power to change people in magnificent ways.


When we are tired of loving someone or when we feel like there's
nobody in this whole world who love us,
dont give up
eventually LOVE will find its way


LOVE and KINDNESS are never wasted, they always make a difference.
They bless the ones who receive it, and they bless you the giver.
So dont stop loving, but at the same time dont forget to LOVE yourself.

and to the people reading this post


:)

So go out and share the LOVE people!!!

A reminder to myself

Dear God,

I thank you for giving me the best parents I can have
in this world.
Help me to love and appreciate them just like how they
have loved me unconditionally.
I pray that You'll continue to keep them save and grant them good health
and that they will be man and women after your heart.
Grant us patience when we cant see each other eye to eye
and continue to unite our hearts as one family.
Lord, be their guiding light when they face problems in their work
and help them to know that You are with them through it all.
Thank you for giving me the best gift in life.
I promise You that i'll never leave nor forsake my parents no matter what happens.
Wherever I go in the future, remind me Lord to honour and love my parents
and to be a blessing to them.

Special post for a special friend :)

This post is specially for my best friend in this whole wide world, Miss Nicole Soh Wei Ying :)

Dear Nicole,

Happy birthday dear BFFFFFFF!!! It's been two years since we last celebrated birthday with each other and i miss celebrating birthday with you.

How are you dear friend?? You must be busy preparing for your exams now but please dont forget to take good care of your health.

Just wanted to tell you how much difference you've made in my life. You're the first few friends who open yourself to me when i was new in 2P10 and you always took good care of me, making me feel belonged in a new surrounding.

You're the one who always encouraged me not to give up on physics and add maths and everytime i ask you for help, you'll always go the extra mile to help me. You're the one who never fail to message me each time before physics and add maths exam asking me to jia you and you're always there to listen to me when i'm lost.

Those times where we went tuition together and eating raisins together are forever in my heart. You're such a blessing to me and i truly thank God for placing such a wonderful friend in my life. Thank you for your e-mails that never fail to lift me up when i'm down. Even though we're so far away from each other and havent been seeing each other for so long, we're still connected in so many ways.

Blessed birthday my bestest friend. I'm going to miss you so much and we'll even be further away from each other after september :( But you'll still be my BFFFFFFFFFF no matter what happens and we must take loads and loads of pics before you leave!

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH NICOLE SOH!! I pray that you'll continue to stand strong for the Lord and be a blessing to many new people that you'll meet along the way, just like how you've been a blessing to me. AND I pray that God will let you meet with your mr right and live happily ever after. HAHA

Woman, we must continue to keep in touch no matter which sea or which river is separating us!!
Me and you = rubber bungsssssss

LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART :)

好朋友

太阳晒的我眼睛睁不开
你的好脾气
让我心情坏不起来
下雨下的我眼神发呆
你的道歉
听着听着我都快要笑出来
谁 说不能黑白配
世界上没有什么事
能够如此的绝对
曾经有人这样唱过
白天它不懂夜的黑
你却懂得我的美
有时候我 会感觉非常累
有时候也会不自觉把你拖累
你有时会说我们不配
只要能依偎
真的真的我什么都无所谓
钢琴也是黑白键
一样能看 出我对你
只有满满的感谢
也许黑永远不明白
在这个彩色的世界
有你我才会存在

有遇过那么一个可以让你完全信任的人吗？我很庆幸遇到了那个人。

那个在我伤心时会自动打电话关心我，在我说不爽别人时会叫我站在别人的立场想， 在我最需要帮助时默默地坐在旁边支持我，在我最无聊时逗我笑，在我不知所措时指导我的人。

你是我生命中非常重要的人。 你改变了我，让我更懂得去关怀别人，而不是永远只关心自己的事。你用真心对待别人，让我知道这世界还是温暖的。你天真的笑容，让我时时刻刻都感到很窝心。你那永不放弃的个性，让我也学会了不要放弃。

能和你成为好朋友是我的荣幸。未来如何，就让未来为我们决定吧。

谢谢你为我所做的一切。每一件你为我做的事都会让我感动不已。

谢谢你出现在我的生命中。我的世界因为有你而变得好美。你给了我勇气去做我认为不可能做到的事，因为你永远会在背后守护我。
我的好朋友，谢谢你 :)

Connected

My beloved Joy cell
No matter where we are
or how long we've not been talking to each other
I thank God for letting me meet each one of you
You guys are the most awesome people that i can share anything with
and you guys are always the first who'll look out for me
pray for me and talk crap with me

I'm always touched to see the things that you guys had done for me
a simple message, a prayer, a hug, a smile is always there when i need it
sometimes i used to think back the good old joy cell times
thinking what it will be if joy cell is still here
but today i've found the answer

JOY CELL IS ALWAYS IN OUR HEARTS
no matter where we are and what we are doing
we still have each other in our hearts
we are connected in the same way
just as how we are last time

I LOVE YOU JOY CELL SO MUCH
you gave me love unconditionally
and you love me for who i am

I know Joy cell will last forever no matter how far we are in the future
may all of us remain JOYFUL and continue to shine for God in whatever we do


love,
sabrina

海芋~恋

我喜欢海芋。喜欢它那纯纯的白色， 喜欢它散发出来的气质，更喜欢它的简单。

我说啊， 我好久没有欣赏大自然了。一整天只把自己关在家里，对着电视，电脑，手机，还有一大堆永远做不完的功课。我有多久没有和大自然说HELLO呢？

第一次看到海芋是在台湾。 听台湾人说着海芋的故事，也听到海芋在婚礼非常受欢迎，因为海芋代表着纯洁，幸福的爱。

那时有种冲动到阳明山去看海芋，可是冬天的海芋还没有开花，等到海芋开花时我已经回来了。

我们人啊，一直都在追求着自己想要的东西，钱啊，名牌啊，理想啊，男女朋友啊，可是当我们得到这些东西时，我们是否会感到满足呢？在得到这些东西的同时，我们又会失去了生命中其他珍贵的东西呢？

得到某样东西的同时，我们必定会失去某些东西。就好像在成长的过程中，我们一直都希望自己能够快点长大成人，因为大人能够为自己作决定，不用爸爸妈妈帮我们决定每一样东西。可是，长大后，我们却一点一点地在失去我们的童真。

小时候的我们，有顾虑那么多东西吗？那时的我们没有复杂的想法，也不会有勾心斗角，你说我我踩你的情形。这些都是难免的，但最重要的是我们要保留当年的童真，将心比心的去对待每一个你爱的人和爱你的人。

就好像海芋一样，虽然它只有淡淡的颜色，但喜欢它的人却很多啊！相对的，如果我们用真诚的心来做人，就算环境变了，我们也能在当中找到最纯真的感动。

是时候找个时间去欣赏大自然了。

明年吧，我要去竹子湖欣赏海芋：）

我怀念的

回到了充满回忆的地方. 原来那种熟悉的感觉不会因为时间而变淡, 反而会越变越浓. 突然发现原来一切都没有变, 还是那么美好, 只是我们的心态变了.

熟悉的地方, 有着我们一起成长的回忆. 那段一起疯, 一起癫的日子令人好怀念.

我怀念当时的我们. 那时的我们每一天最烦恼的事情就只是下课应该吃什么. 从来不曾为爱情而烦恼, 因为那时的我们拥有彼此.

我怀念那时的欢笑, 因为那时的欢笑是最真诚的. 每一个有我们的地方都会充满着愉快的笑声, 那种感觉好温暖, 好幸福.

我怀念以前吵架的日子. 为了小事而吵架的我们, 曾经吵到面红耳赤, 也曾经为彼此掉过不少的泪水. 但吵架后的我们友情比以前更坚固.

我怀念我们在一次的时光. 一起去旅行, 一起吃东西, 一起谈心事, 一起在同一班上课的日子因为有你们变得好美好.

现在的我们都长大了, 相处的时间也减少了. 欢笑被泪水代替了, 我们没有以前那样的开朗了. 我们好像都戴上了面具, 就算是笑也不是发自内心的笑了. 我们的生活多了许多烦恼, 压力也增加了, 我们开始为了感情, 学业, 未来而变得多愁善感.

朋友啊, 你还记得那段最美好的时光吗? 最近的大家都心事重重, 虽然知道发生什么事, 却无能为力为彼此做些什么东西.

但是朋友啊, 以前的我们也遇到不少风浪啊, 以前的我们既然能够战胜问题, 我相信现在的我们也能克服更大的问题, 因为我们始终有彼此在身旁.

我们永远是最相亲相爱, 最温暖, 最有义气, 最吵, 最棒的 SELFLOVING GANG!!!
永远要记得这一点, 因为这是我们对彼此的承诺. 无论发生什么事情, 我们都会为彼此加油, 在你跌倒, 无助时拉你一把, 在你哭泣时擦干你的眼泪.

我们永远不孤单, 以前, 现在和未来都是.

RANT RANT RANT!!!

Results = everything??
What class you're in decides how you treat others??
People who have lower grades than other people = failure in life??

I hate people who think they are more superior than the others. What makes them think so? What makes them have the authority to decide that you're a failure because you flunk your exams and should be looked down upon? So what does good results really mean if you're a stuck up, arrogant asshole that despise others just because they're not as clever as you? I really hate those people. People who have no care for other people's feelings, who'll just utter words that hurt others just to make themselves feel good.

I truly believe that people who made it in life need not to be people with excellent results, but he or she must had been a person with awesome character. Always encouraging people not bring people down, helping people when they need help and not criticising the person, sensitive to other people's hurt and not add hurt to the wound and so on. So what if you get the best result in the world and your friends whom you always thought are friends hated you?? Will the results bring any happiness to you? You've lost the whole world because of your attitude.

This year i truly understand the meaning of being looked down upon. At first i felt so dejected and disappointed when people whom i thought are my close friends uttered those kind of hurtful words to me. Never in the world had me imagine listening to all these words from my friends. I've cried till i have no tears, angry till i cant even see the person eye to eye and i even thought of scolding that person to get lost in front of me. Maybe i'm too sensitive or maybe they didnt realise what they've said is actually causing hurt to me, but as a friend, you should know what to speak and what not to speak. But when i think further, if i continue acting that way, does that make me similar to those who have caused hurt to me?

I choose to keep quiet because i do not want to cause any further arguments. I do not agree with you but it's your mouth, not my mouth. I have no control of what you say but please be more sensitive to others. You may have caused hurt indirectly and when people is trying to stand up after so many falls, you are literally breaking that person's leg so that he has no chance to stand at all. I do not like talking to you because every sentence you speak, i smell sarcasm. You maybe a very bright student, with teachers praising about your wonderful results, but you're still a normal being in God's sight.

My results may be sucky and laughable in your eyes and i may not achieve those kind of results like yours but So what?? There is more to life other than just getting excellent results. I'm not in your league and i dont want to be in you league too. I want to be a person who will laugh and cry with my friends, working hard together to achieve our dreams. I dont want to be like you. I may seem to be a failure in your eyes because of my results but i think i'm the most blessed person on earth. I have my family and friends that pray for me when i'm down, cheer me up when i cry and most importantly never looked down on me even when i fail.

Maybe you've never experience failure in your life while i have experienced failure after failure. Doesnt matter. I believe the one up there has the best plan for me and He has his purpose in wanting me to experience failure. I will not give up till i get what i want in life. Dont worry, i've immune myself to these kind of words and nothing you say in the future will be able to hurt me. I will not drop a single tear because it it not worth it to cry for someone who has no place in my heart.

Lastly, thank you for all your hurtful remarks. You've done a great job in breaking me but its going to end here. Hope you are able to find a true friend who can take your sarcasm, criticism and ego. All the best to you!!

Ahhhh, i feel so better after ranting it all out. Sorry for this kind of post, just needed an outlet to vent out my frustration.

Failure does not shape you
The way you respond to failure shapes you

To my friends who are facing similar problems, JIA YOU!!! WE CAN DO IT!!!

梦.想

I finally understood the phrase

DREAMS ARE HARD TO CATCH

I'm suffocating
I dont know how much longer can i hang on to my dreams
When your confidence is gone after so many falls, you can hardly believe in yourself anymore.


Will I ever see light at the end of the tunnel??