Friday, April 30, 2010

海芋~恋

我喜欢海芋。喜欢它那纯纯的白色, 喜欢它散发出来的气质,更喜欢它的简单。

我说啊, 我好久没有欣赏大自然了。一整天只把自己关在家里,对着电视,电脑,手机,还有一大堆永远做不完的功课。我有多久没有和大自然说HELLO呢?

第一次看到海芋是在台湾。 听台湾人说着海芋的故事,也听到海芋在婚礼非常受欢迎,因为海芋代表着纯洁,幸福的爱。

那时有种冲动到阳明山去看海芋,可是冬天的海芋还没有开花,等到海芋开花时我已经回来了。

我们人啊,一直都在追求着自己想要的东西,钱啊,名牌啊,理想啊,男女朋友啊,可是当我们得到这些东西时,我们是否会感到满足呢?在得到这些东西的同时,我们又会失去了生命中其他珍贵的东西呢?

得到某样东西的同时,我们必定会失去某些东西。就好像在成长的过程中,我们一直都希望自己能够快点长大成人,因为大人能够为自己作决定,不用爸爸妈妈帮我们决定每一样东西。可是,长大后,我们却一点一点地在失去我们的童真。

小时候的我们,有顾虑那么多东西吗?那时的我们没有复杂的想法,也不会有勾心斗角,你说我我踩你的情形。这些都是难免的,但最重要的是我们要保留当年的童真,将心比心的去对待每一个你爱的人和爱你的人。

就好像海芋一样,虽然它只有淡淡的颜色,但喜欢它的人却很多啊!相对的,如果我们用真诚的心来做人,就算环境变了,我们也能在当中找到最纯真的感动。

是时候找个时间去欣赏大自然了。

明年吧,我要去竹子湖欣赏海芋:)

Thursday, April 29, 2010

我怀念的

回到了充满回忆的地方. 原来那种熟悉的感觉不会因为时间而变淡, 反而会越变越浓. 突然发现原来一切都没有变, 还是那么美好, 只是我们的心态变了.

熟悉的地方, 有着我们一起成长的回忆. 那段一起疯, 一起癫的日子令人好怀念.

我怀念当时的我们. 那时的我们每一天最烦恼的事情就只是下课应该吃什么. 从来不曾为爱情而烦恼, 因为那时的我们拥有彼此.

我怀念那时的欢笑, 因为那时的欢笑是最真诚的. 每一个有我们的地方都会充满着愉快的笑声, 那种感觉好温暖, 好幸福.

我怀念以前吵架的日子. 为了小事而吵架的我们, 曾经吵到面红耳赤, 也曾经为彼此掉过不少的泪水. 但吵架后的我们友情比以前更坚固.

我怀念我们在一次的时光. 一起去旅行, 一起吃东西, 一起谈心事, 一起在同一班上课的日子因为有你们变得好美好.

现在的我们都长大了, 相处的时间也减少了. 欢笑被泪水代替了, 我们没有以前那样的开朗了. 我们好像都戴上了面具, 就算是笑也不是发自内心的笑了. 我们的生活多了许多烦恼, 压力也增加了, 我们开始为了感情, 学业, 未来而变得多愁善感.

朋友啊, 你还记得那段最美好的时光吗? 最近的大家都心事重重, 虽然知道发生什么事, 却无能为力为彼此做些什么东西.

但是朋友啊, 以前的我们也遇到不少风浪啊, 以前的我们既然能够战胜问题, 我相信现在的我们也能克服更大的问题, 因为我们始终有彼此在身旁.

我们永远是最相亲相爱, 最温暖, 最有义气, 最吵, 最棒的 SELFLOVING GANG!!!
永远要记得这一点, 因为这是我们对彼此的承诺. 无
论发生什么事情, 我们都会为彼此加油, 在你跌倒, 无助时拉你一把, 在你哭泣时擦干你的眼泪.

我们永远不孤单, 以前, 现在和未来都是.

Sunday, April 25, 2010

RANT RANT RANT!!!

Results = everything??
What class you're in decides how you treat others??
People who have lower grades than other people = failure in life??

I hate people who think they are more superior than the others. What makes them think so? What makes them have the authority to decide that you're a failure because you flunk your exams and should be looked down upon? So what does good results really mean if you're a stuck up, arrogant asshole that despise others just because they're not as clever as you? I really hate those people. People who have no care for other people's feelings, who'll just utter words that hurt others just to make themselves feel good.

I truly believe that people who made it in life need not to be people with excellent results, but he or she must had been a person with awesome character. Always encouraging people not bring people down, helping people when they need help and not criticising the person, sensitive to other people's hurt and not add hurt to the wound and so on. So what if you get the best result in the world and your friends whom you always thought are friends hated you?? Will the results bring any happiness to you? You've lost the whole world because of your attitude.

This year i truly understand the meaning of being looked down upon. At first i felt so dejected and disappointed when people whom i thought are my close friends uttered those kind of hurtful words to me. Never in the world had me imagine listening to all these words from my friends. I've cried till i have no tears, angry till i cant even see the person eye to eye and i even thought of scolding that person to get lost in front of me. Maybe i'm too sensitive or maybe they didnt realise what they've said is actually causing hurt to me, but as a friend, you should know what to speak and what not to speak. But when i think further, if i continue acting that way, does that make me similar to those who have caused hurt to me?

I choose to keep quiet because i do not want to cause any further arguments. I do not agree with you but it's your mouth, not my mouth. I have no control of what you say but please be more sensitive to others. You may have caused hurt indirectly and when people is trying to stand up after so many falls, you are literally breaking that person's leg so that he has no chance to stand at all. I do not like talking to you because every sentence you speak, i smell sarcasm. You maybe a very bright student, with teachers praising about your wonderful results, but you're still a normal being in God's sight.

My results may be sucky and laughable in your eyes and i may not achieve those kind of results like yours but So what?? There is more to life other than just getting excellent results. I'm not in your league and i dont want to be in you league too. I want to be a person who will laugh and cry with my friends, working hard together to achieve our dreams. I dont want to be like you. I may seem to be a failure in your eyes because of my results but i think i'm the most blessed person on earth. I have my family and friends that pray for me when i'm down, cheer me up when i cry and most importantly never looked down on me even when i fail.

Maybe you've never experience failure in your life while i have experienced failure after failure. Doesnt matter. I believe the one up there has the best plan for me and He has his purpose in wanting me to experience failure. I will not give up till i get what i want in life. Dont worry, i've immune myself to these kind of words and nothing you say in the future will be able to hurt me. I will not drop a single tear because it it not worth it to cry for someone who has no place in my heart.

Lastly, thank you for all your hurtful remarks. You've done a great job in breaking me but its going to end here. Hope you are able to find a true friend who can take your sarcasm, criticism and ego. All the best to you!!

Ahhhh, i feel so better after ranting it all out. Sorry for this kind of post, just needed an outlet to vent out my frustration.

Failure does not shape you
The way you respond to failure shapes you

To my friends who are facing similar problems, JIA YOU!!! WE CAN DO IT!!!

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

梦.想

I finally understood the phrase

DREAMS ARE HARD TO CATCH


I'm suffocating
I dont know how much longer can i hang on to my dreams
When your confidence is gone after so many falls, you can hardly believe in yourself anymore.


Will I ever see light at the end of the tunnel??