What if ??

What if during the first days of school i had not sit with ziyi?
What if you sat with her??
Will our friendship be more closer than now?

What if that day i sat with kerlee and you had not come up late, will the result be different??
What if i listened to you and insisted to ziyi that i heard you telling her that you want to sit with her??

If everything went as what we had planned that day, i wonder will you be happier than now?
Now you are further and further away from us and somehow i feel that it is my fault.
Everytime i look at you, a sense of guiltiness will creep inside me, telling me that i'm the one who had caused all these things to happen.

I always wanted to ask you " are you happy now?" but i dont have the guts to ask you
You are the bestest sister and bestest friend i ever had.
We share the same birthday, born in the same hospital, same class for 5 years and even share the same bag.
To me, you are like my eldest sister who understands me inside out.
Even when i didnt tell you what i was going through at that time, you can always feel what i'm feeling and a call to your house will never fail to lift me up.

Last time when i need a shoulder to cry on, you'll be the first on my mind.
Now when i'm sad, i still think of you but i wonder whether we still have the "telepathy" to know how each other feel.
People always say distance does not matter if you have that person in your heart
Even though you are so near to me, our hearts are not close anymore.
I do not know what is happening to your life, our conversations are brief and we do not share our ups and downs with each other anymore =[

You'll still be my best friend no matter what happens and i know you feel the same too.
Maybe what we need now is time.
I sincerely believe that time heals and God in His own timing will make a way for us.
We always celebrate our birthday together and you once told me you hope that we'll celebrate together for years and years to come.
I promise you that for the many years to come, you'll always be the one whom i'll celebrate my birthday with.

Dear sis, i love you so much, much more than anyone could imagine. You had helped me in so many ways and without you, i'll not be what i am today. You'll always have my fullest support and the memories that we share together will always be in my heart. =]

once in a lifetime

I find a friend

who touches not only my heart

but also my soul

once in a lifetime

I discover someone

who stands beside me

not over me

once in a lifetime

if you are lucky

you find someone

as I have found you

Very special people

we can be ourselves with

talk with, laugh with

hope with, believe with

The many faces of B1 students

Today we B1 students had 1 biology practical and 1 chemistry practical to do. For the bio practical, each of us have to bring 1 potato and cut them into 15 potato strips (6cm x 4mm x 4mm) for the osmosis experiment. Well i learnt a few lessons from this bio practical

1st lesson: When the teacher ask you to bring 1 potato, dont trust her. 1 potato is for those people who are pro in cutting potatoes. I WASTED 5 POTATOES FOR THIS EXPERIMENT!! I can cook up a potato meal with 5 potatoes man. So wasteful. But partially its my fault because i didnt know how to cut the potatoes. I was either cutting them too short or too thick. So in the end i had 2 borrow potatoes from my friends as my potatoes are totally unusable ( my potatoes are like dwarfs compared to all those giant potatoes that my friends bought)

2nd lesson: Always build a good relationship with your classmates as classmates are very important when you're not good at doing experiments. After the teacher saw me wasting potatoes like pipe water, she asked my classmate calvin nga to help me. He was so nice to help me cut all those potatoes and when i said i 'll belanja him sushi tomorrow, he said " Help people no need to ask for return de" Aww, such good classmates i have!!! And the two guys in front of me was also nice enough to provide me with blades and potatoes when they only have 2 . In the end they have to share 1 blade while i share the other blade with ziyi.

After recess, we went for our chem practical and we ended up doing crazy stuffs in the lab. We mixed different chemicals together without knowing what the chemical was. One classmate mixed chlorine with iron (III) chloride and the whole lab was filled with chlorine gas. Oh by the way, we dare to do this kind of things because our teacher went away for PIBG meeting. Haha. Even the lab assistant was scared of us. I never thought B1 students can be so playful and naughty. My perspection towards my class is always is geng geng people who study 24/7 and can memorise the whole chem book with just one look. Haha. i'm just exaggerating.

Now i'm beginning to like my class more and more. B1 students can also be playful while studying hard at the same time. Cant wait for our class trip and hopefully during that bonding time, we'll get to know each other more and be as close as a family.

LOVE LOVE LOVE LBB1

POPO AND GONGGONG GET WELL SOON

Today when i was walking out of the school, Mr Hee stopped me and asked me why i was not paying attention during his class. He said i'm not the usual me which is always so active and cheerful, now i'm always sleepy, tired and not attentive during his class. Lots of things had happen over the last week. Got the news that popo had mild stroke after i returned from canteen day. When i went back and visit her, i had to control myself from crying. Her eyes and mouth had slanted and she cant talk properly. Popo has always been a very healthy person. She never had any major sickness before and the thought of her having stroke never came into my mind. I always tell people that i'm blessed with healthy grandparents but now both of them are sick. Gonggong had his cataract operation today and thank God everything went well smoothly. Popo is going for her CT scan tomorrow and hopefully the doctors will be able to diagnose what is going on in her brain.

Since i heard about the news, i couldnt sleep properly at night. I will always be awaken in the middle of the night, thinking about my grandparents. And when i got awaken, i will always pray to God asking Him to protect my grandparents and bless them with long life. However, the fear of losing them is just too much for me to contain. I'm afraid that they wont be here for my graduation, my wedding and many more family events to come. I realise that as i'm growing older, they are ageing too. One day they'll have to leave me but i'm still not prepared to face this kind of situation yet.

My popo and gonggong love me very much. Since young i have been staying with them, following them wherever they go and they never fail to shower me with their love and care. As i grew older, my parents brought me back to stay with them but i'll still visit them everyday. But due to hectic school life and never ending homeworks, i start visiting them once a week. At first i'll call them quite frequently but as time goes by, the calls became less and less. Still they'll call me and ask me how am i doing in school but i've always taken for granted that they'll be here for a long time. Sometimes i spend time hanging out with my friends rather than going back to visit them because i had the mindset of "i still can visit them next week".

Now, the only wish i have is that they'll come to know the Lord and may God grant them good health so that i can see them for a longer time. I thank God for helping me make the right decision of staying here and do my form 6 because nothing else in this world beats having my family around me. =]

POPO AND GONG GOING I LOVE BOTH OF YOU VERY MUCH!!! MAY BOTH OF YOU GET WELL SOON AND WE'LL GO ON TRIPS TOGETHER!!!

When SELFLOVINGS gather together

Pure madness is the word to describe our outing today. Been laughing non stop from 7.30 till 2-30, starting from eating dim sum, going amc canteen day till lunch. Wonder what will happen to our jaws if this outing continue till 12 midnight?? All of us will be going back home with our jaws malfunction due to excessive laughing and probably our faces will be smaller too according to anne. =)

Woke up at 6.45 today and went to Foo San at about 7.15 to meet my besties over there. Its so nice to see everyone of us sitting in a round table eating dim sum together. Seriously felt like a family gathering rather than just a normal gathering. We talked and laughed non stop, covering multiple topics such as imitating teacher, funny things that happen in school and FOOD. Surprisingly, we didnt eat much (most of the time was spent laughing rather than eating), and we even have to tapao food which is so uncommon when you have kerlee around. Haha.

Later we went for amc canteen day. Went with high hopes that we'll enjoy ourselves there playing horror house, maze or just walking around but got rather disappointed. In the end we decided to just sit and i cant even use up my rm 10 coupon. The biggest attraction that we found was the balloons and the uncle was so nice to let us take pictures with the balloons =]]]]

Lunch was the most exciting part of the day. Imagine yourself sitting in the room for 2 hours and each time when you want to eat your food, somebody will just spill out a joke and all your energy will be used to laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh. When you have these kind of friends around, you'll never get bored because sometime someone will do something outrageous and all of us will roar into laughter. Thank goodness the person in charge provided us with a room, if not i think no customer will ever dare to eat in that restaurant anymore when they see a bunch of crazy girls laughing hysterically at some jokes only they will understand. And this is what i like the most about my friends, we laugh no matter where we are without caring about our image and i'm truly blessed to have found them. =]]

Didint take much photo today, pics are with anne. And by the way, sam tet brass band won the band competition. Congrats STBB!!

SABRINA IS SOOOOO HAPPY CAUSE SHE HAS THE MOST AMAZING FRIENDS ON EARTH!!!

I TOTALLY HEART SELFLOVING!!!!

GOOD FRIENDS =]

First blog post =]

Had been thinking of creating a blog since form 5 but due to serious procrastination and laziness, this thought of mine had never been a successful one until today. So here am i writing my first post at 12.15 am, with nothing in mind.

Well, my desktop computer was struck down by lightning 2 weeks ago so havent been checking my emails and facebook for 2 weeks. So today when i finally checked my mails, i got an email from nicole. Am so touched seriously when i read it. It really feels so good when you know that even though friends may be far apart, they still care for you and never fail to encourage you. They are always keeping an eye on you, giving you their fullest support whenever you need them.

Life is brief but BLISS. Blissful life doesnt mean having a stress-free life, but when you have a great God, loving family and wonderful, joyful friends around you, no matter how hard or difficult life is, it still can be BEAUTIFUL and BLISSFUL.

Seriously cant wait to meet up with all my besties tomorrow. Its been a long time since we yak and laugh like nobody business and i'm so happy that tomorrow we'll be doing that again. Haha.

Foo San dim sum and amc canteen day here i come!!!