Wake Up Call

I finally understand what is the meaning of 欲哭无泪. Its when you're sad until you've reach a state where even crying is not enough to express the sadness in your heart. I know maybe this is just a small thing to others but to me, this is the first time i've experience such thing.

I know i cant blame anyone but blame only myself for the outcome today. I know well that i can do better but i just didnt perform. I just let those chances slip away from my hands. People have been telling me that stpm is the most difficult exam but i always assume that i can use the same attitude when i sat for spm towards stpm. And now i learn that the answer is wrong, but the price of learning this lesson is costly.

I dont want to leave my friends. I love studying and laughing together with them. I tried so hard not to cry in class today as i dont want them to see me cry again.

I know this is a wake up call for me. This is not the end yet. My ultimate goal is to succeed in stpm. I still have one more year to work on my studies and this time i will not play a fool anymore. One fall is enough and i do not want to fall for the second time.

Like what Anne said, i'm lucky that i have this wake up call. At least it made me realise that i need to buck up and not be too over confident. I know i can do it. I've conquer my 2 most feared subject- physics and add maths in the past and i'm sure i can conquer stpm as well.

For my friends reading this post, please do your friend here a little favour. I give you full authority to scold me or whack me whenever you guys see me slack. Please remind me to study and complete my homework AT HOME.

I'll indulge in my sadness for one day only. Tomorrow will be a fresh start for me. Even though things will be a little different from now on, i know i can overcome it because i have the love of God, family and friends in my heart.

Sabrina Leong, you can do it!!! Jia you jia you jia you!!!

Random Post

This quote made my day :)

Fly fly let it fly

Fly fly let it fly

let it be gone with the winds

let it fly to a place where it'll find its rightful owners

i do not need you now

family and friends are all i need now

maybe someday i'll need you

but FREEDOM is what i need now

i'm tired of waiting for answers

time and time i keep on waiting

but that time never come

I've decided to let everything go

I do not want to think of these things anymore

I want to see myself happy

I want to be independent

I want to love everyone who cares for me

And not to let them worry about me

Nobody knows what lies in the future

But i know people i love will be there for me

For a very very long time

And that's all i need

~Fly fly let it fly~

03.11.09

On 03.11.91

two babies came into this world

each with different size and character

but equally lovely and adorable

And a girl name Sabrina had the privilledge of knowing both of them

which impacted her in different ways

MISS LOO YEE KUAN

You're the best listener i've ever known in my entire life.

Thanks for always bearing with me on the phone for hours

listening to my rants and never ending problems.

Thanks for being my beloved TIME SIPPER and my movie companion.

Thanks for always being there for me even though at times i'm quite unreasonable

Thanks for always zat-ing me so that i can work hard on my maths

Thanks for always driving me here and there

Thanks for the laughter you've have brought into my life

Thanks for your advice on many things

Thanks for teaching me so many stuffs

Thanks for always being there to talk, laugh, and cry with me

MISS FOO KER LEE

Hope you like the cake and the surprise today :)

It's such a joy sitting in front of you,

always bringing me laughter and happiness

I'll always remember the encouraging words you spoke to me when i'm really down

I look up to you as my jie jie who bring so much joy to all the people around

cheering them up and lifting them up

Thanks for always helping me out in class when i'm stressed out

Thanks for always teaching me maths and chem

Thanks for always sharing you food with me

Thanks for being sucha awesome secretary

Thanks for being a CUTE, PRETTY, BOUNCING TENNIS BALL

HAPPY SWEET 18TH to the both of you!!!

You two had been such a great blessing to me

and i'm ever grateful in having both of you as my friend

All the best in everything you do

and you'll always have my fullest support

Though we may walk different paths in the future,

i'll still want to be there for your every birthday

Stay pretty, cheerful and slim always

Haha

LOVE LOVE LOVE FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART

BIG HEAD ROCKSSSSSSSS

FAT GIRL ROCKSSSSSSSS

p.s. lulu, even though i do not know what you're going through right now, i sincerely hope that you'll be fine :)