Sunday, April 25, 2010

RANT RANT RANT!!!

Results = everything??
What class you're in decides how you treat others??
People who have lower grades than other people = failure in life??

I hate people who think they are more superior than the others. What makes them think so? What makes them have the authority to decide that you're a failure because you flunk your exams and should be looked down upon? So what does good results really mean if you're a stuck up, arrogant asshole that despise others just because they're not as clever as you? I really hate those people. People who have no care for other people's feelings, who'll just utter words that hurt others just to make themselves feel good.

I truly believe that people who made it in life need not to be people with excellent results, but he or she must had been a person with awesome character. Always encouraging people not bring people down, helping people when they need help and not criticising the person, sensitive to other people's hurt and not add hurt to the wound and so on. So what if you get the best result in the world and your friends whom you always thought are friends hated you?? Will the results bring any happiness to you? You've lost the whole world because of your attitude.

This year i truly understand the meaning of being looked down upon. At first i felt so dejected and disappointed when people whom i thought are my close friends uttered those kind of hurtful words to me. Never in the world had me imagine listening to all these words from my friends. I've cried till i have no tears, angry till i cant even see the person eye to eye and i even thought of scolding that person to get lost in front of me. Maybe i'm too sensitive or maybe they didnt realise what they've said is actually causing hurt to me, but as a friend, you should know what to speak and what not to speak. But when i think further, if i continue acting that way, does that make me similar to those who have caused hurt to me?

I choose to keep quiet because i do not want to cause any further arguments. I do not agree with you but it's your mouth, not my mouth. I have no control of what you say but please be more sensitive to others. You may have caused hurt indirectly and when people is trying to stand up after so many falls, you are literally breaking that person's leg so that he has no chance to stand at all. I do not like talking to you because every sentence you speak, i smell sarcasm. You maybe a very bright student, with teachers praising about your wonderful results, but you're still a normal being in God's sight.

My results may be sucky and laughable in your eyes and i may not achieve those kind of results like yours but So what?? There is more to life other than just getting excellent results. I'm not in your league and i dont want to be in you league too. I want to be a person who will laugh and cry with my friends, working hard together to achieve our dreams. I dont want to be like you. I may seem to be a failure in your eyes because of my results but i think i'm the most blessed person on earth. I have my family and friends that pray for me when i'm down, cheer me up when i cry and most importantly never looked down on me even when i fail.

Maybe you've never experience failure in your life while i have experienced failure after failure. Doesnt matter. I believe the one up there has the best plan for me and He has his purpose in wanting me to experience failure. I will not give up till i get what i want in life. Dont worry, i've immune myself to these kind of words and nothing you say in the future will be able to hurt me. I will not drop a single tear because it it not worth it to cry for someone who has no place in my heart.

Lastly, thank you for all your hurtful remarks. You've done a great job in breaking me but its going to end here. Hope you are able to find a true friend who can take your sarcasm, criticism and ego. All the best to you!!

Ahhhh, i feel so better after ranting it all out. Sorry for this kind of post, just needed an outlet to vent out my frustration.

Failure does not shape you
The way you respond to failure shapes you

To my friends who are facing similar problems, JIA YOU!!! WE CAN DO IT!!!

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

梦.想

I finally understood the phrase

DREAMS ARE HARD TO CATCH


I'm suffocating
I dont know how much longer can i hang on to my dreams
When your confidence is gone after so many falls, you can hardly believe in yourself anymore.


Will I ever see light at the end of the tunnel??

Saturday, March 27, 2010

We Are The Reason



Just wanted to share with you guys a hand mine presentation we performed 2 years ago. The song that we used for the hand mime is " We Are The Reason "

As little children we would dream of christmas morn
Of all the gifts and toys we knew we'd find
But we never realised a baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives

*We were the reason that He gave his life
We were the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live

As the years went by we learned more about gifts
The giving of ourselves and what that means
On a dark and cloudy day a man hung crying in the rain
All because of love
All because of love

I've finally found the reason for living
It's in giving every heart of my life to Him
And all that I do every word that I say
I'll be giving my all just for Him
Just for Him


Enjoy this video and may the song about God's love touch your heart. Just as how His love touched my heart and make me believe that there is a God who sacrificed His life by dying on the cross just to pay for my sins. But his work did not end there for He rose up on the third day from the grave and because of this, we celebrate Easter.

I SERVE AN ALMIGHTY GOD AND BECAUSE HE LIVES, I CAN FACE TOMORROW
I'M A VICTOR BECAUSE I HAVE VICTORY IN CHRIST!!

Have a blessed Easter everybody!!!

Monday, March 22, 2010

Bye bye MR EMO


Happiness can be very simple
but many a times happiness seem so far from us

Things i learnt this week
I do not need to wait for happiness to find me
because happiness is all around me
I just need to look around and tada
HERE COMES HAPPINESS

Thanks for all your smiles that brighten my day
You never know how infectous your smile is until it brightens someone's day
Thanks for the laughter that never fail to cheer me up
Thanks for the unity in us
Thanks for the time spent practicing with you guys
Its the best thing i ever did these few weeks

Say bye to sorrow
For sorrow is not from the Lord
JOY JOY JOY is going to take the place of sorrow
I'm blessed
with great people and caring prayers

No doubt i'll still feel down at times
And there'll always be times where happiness doesnt seem to exist
But there'll always be spring after winter
So i'll just have to endure winter and anticipate spring

Cry no more
For i have the Joy of the Lord within me
AMEN


Monday, March 15, 2010

=DDD

I'VE FOUND MY GOAL!!!
I'M A HAPPY GIRL NOW :)))))

NATIONAL TAIWAN UNIVERSITY PLEASE WAIT FOR ME!!!!

THIS BLOG SHALL ROT UNTIL I HAVE THE MOOD TO UPDATE

IN THE MEANTIME

AZA AZA AZA AZA!!!!!!!!

Monday, February 15, 2010

这个新年,你陪家人了吗?

每一个能够和家人度过的新年对我来说是一种福气. 能够有家人在身边的人是最幸福的. 无论在外头的我遇到了不开心还是不愉快的事, 只要一回到家看到了永远都关心我的家人, 我的心情就算再怎么低落, 难过, 我都会觉得我是可以克服我的问题的, 因为我一直都会有家人的支持. 家, 永远是我最终的庇难所, 也是最包容我的地方.

每一个能和婆婆公公过的新年都是最美好的新年. 虽然不知道还能和他们度过多少个新年, 每一个能和他们度过的新年对我来说是一种恩赐.

我喜欢看他们抱着孙子时所流露出来的笑容, 但心里却无时无刻地在想: 孙子越来越大, 就代表他们也越来越老了, 如果我们不曾长大, 那他们也不必变老了. 这个想法我知道永远不可能会实现, 但是至少能让心情变得好一些.

星期二和家人去了槟城拜年, 感觉很好, 因为可以一家人去游玩, 但我发现婆婆走路的速度越来越慢了. 我知道婆婆一直很努力地在走路, 因为她不想拖慢大家的时间, 但我却可以感觉到她的脚其实是很痛的. 看在眼里, 我的心真的很痛. 小时候一直都是婆婆带我过马路, 带我搭车, 带我去巴杀的. 如今, 我也要牵着婆婆的手, 慢慢一步步地走, 哪怕走得再慢, 我也要陪婆婆一直走下去, 永远不会嫌弃婆婆走得慢, 因为婆婆从来不曾嫌弃我, 在我最顽皮, 最叛逆的时候一直不停的爱我. 所以我爱婆婆公公的程度要比他们爱我的程度更高一千倍.


这个新年, 是我逗留在家中最长的一次, 也是让我感动最深的一次. 原来幸福就这么简单. 只要有家人和朋友在身边, 我们就是很幸福很幸福的人了. 能一起吃团圆饭, 一起倒数新年的到来, 一起祝贺家人身体健康, 一起游玩, 一起看电视, 一起散步, 一起总动员追小弟弟......... 幸福其实就在我们的四周围, 只要我们肯花点时间去注意, 我们就会发现幸福.

朋友们, 这个新年, 你陪家人的时间有比去年的长吗? 要记得, 随着时间的增长, 我们留在家里陪家人的时间就会越来越少了. 在成长的我们总有一天会离开家到别的地方读书或工作, 而家人也会随之变老. 所以趁现在就好好疼爱和珍惜家人吧!

能成为一家人是上天的恩赐, 所以这个新年, 用心地去关怀和陪伴你的家人吧! 让今年的新年深深地烙印在你心中, 成为最美好的新年 :)

新年快乐!!!!!!

Sunday, January 31, 2010

AWESOME DAY!!!

I had such an awesome sunday!!! Spending sundays with church friends are so much fun that time passes so quickly on sundays. Went to eat kam hor CHU YUK FUN to celebrate wai kit's birthday. HAHA. I know i know celebrating people's birthday by eating chu yuk fun is random but because our JOY CELL leader, LAI HAR JIE is the queen of pork and may jet is craving for pork mee, thus eating chu yuk fun for lunch. Had so much fun eating pork mee with them. We were practically laughing every second while we were in that coffee shop, just like the good old times where we'll laugh non stop during cell time. ( 5 minutes lesson, 55 minutes laughter) :]]]


before
mayjet's afer eating bowl



MEEEEEE
MOST AWESOME CELL LEADER-- HAR JIE!!!
as usual blur kerry
BIRTHDAY BOY!!!
satisfying look :))
see, mayjet can PARK so well. haha

After lunch, went back to church for 3rd service. I felt so ministered by today's worship and sermon. Good job samuel lo. and team and aunty esther. Later we head to the basement for our joy cell family photo session!!! Too bad some of the joy cell members are not here. Must seriously have a joy cell reunion during chinese new year. I want to laugh like the times when we had steamboat. HAHA

BENITA!!!


JOY CELL take 1 :]]]]]
JOY CELL take 2 :)

Later on went to mcd with sarah, doreen and grace. Call me a pig for eating non stop but i really enjoyed the company of the 3 of them. Was also laughing every second we were in mcd. Memang bising la we all until nobbody dared to sit next to us. Love 3 of them to the maximum for letting me eat their burgers.

Next stop, stadium indera mulia for the christmas celebration thingy with non other than my lovely church friends. Will tell you more after coming back tonight.

What a lovely weekend well spent with my lovelies!!! Lets go out again soon :)))