my besties

They are angels God sent into my life
and i love them more than anything else
they are the most sincere, true and best friends i've ever had
and i'll do anything to make them smile

thank you is never enough
laughter is never absent
love is always in our hearts

i smiled,
as i look back at my photo album collection
good old days, better ones to come
for me to look back and smile,
in the future :D

dear someone

i dont like arguments.
arguments make relationships turn bad
it makes people feel miserable,
not forgetting the tears that flow and the anger within after each argument.

no matter how hard we try to avoid having arguments,
sometimes arguments just come without us noticing.
i hate the moment of cold war after every argument.
supposedly we were best friends before the argument
and after that we are blaming the other party for the argument.
when nobody wants to back down, nothing is solved.

i wish i never uttered those words that may had hurt you
it was never intentional
because i really treat you as my best friend.
i wish you had put yourself in my shoes,
understanding what i've been through
and just give me your support.

you're angry and i'm angry too
but what's the point of getting mad with each other?
we'll only get more miserable day by day

i dont know how to solve this
i wish we never had this argument
i promised myself never to have any argument with you
but i failed to keep my promise

sorry, i never mean to hurt you
i treasure you more than anything else
and to see you hurt is the last thing i would wanna do
can we just forget the past and move on?

anger and tears are temporary
while the good times are forever in my heart.
let us just appreciate the last few months before we embark on our dreams
no more arguments, just laughter.

sincerely from me

有你真好

每当伤心,
感觉自己最无助的时候,
你都会好像守护天使般出现,
擦干我的眼泪,
用你最特别的方式安慰我,
让我即使伤心也会觉得很窝心.

你很特别,
你很优秀,
你总记得我说过的每一样东西,
你总是有办法让我笑,
也有很多时候让我很生气, 很想哭,
但能认识你真的很好.

谢谢你,
因为你
我不害怕,
因为我知道永远会有一个人在我最需要他时出现,
一个在电话里叫我放声大哭,
尽他所能让我开心的人.

谢谢你,
有你真的很好 :)

有了你开心的
也都称心满意
咸鱼白菜也好好味
我与你永永共聚
分分钟需要你
你似是阳光空气

i have a dream

I have a dream
to be a missionary doctor
travelling all around the world helping people who are in need.

I have a dream
to study in somewhere else
to feel what is like to be away from home
and to experience the culture of other countries.

I have a dream
to bring joy to whoever i meet along my way
to be a friend that cares
and to be a listener that listens.

I have a dream
to live a meaningful life
waking up everyday to explore what life has to give me.

I have a dream
to set my foot again in taiwan
studying there and living there.

I have a dream
to serve my country
to make my country a better place to live in
because i love this country.

All these dreams of mine
I'M GONNA MAKE THEM A REALITY
though I might face setbacks and disappointments
I'M STILL GONNA MAKE THEM A REALITY
simply because I only live once.

when i have finally attain all these
i'll be able to say proudly that I'VE DID IT
and i know this day will come.

I JUST NEED TO BELIEVE IN MY SELF
AND CLAIM JEREMIAH 29:11

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper and not to harm you,
plans to give you a hope and a future.

it aint mission impossible
ITS DEFINITELY MISSION POSSIBLE :)

Specially for MISS TOO PEI PEI :)

On this very special day of yours,
i just want to say that it is a blessing having you in my life.
You brought joy, laughter, love and care into every of our lives,
making us feel belonged and loved.

I adore you for your love for friends,
for willing to spend hours listening to us when we are down.

I adore you for your commitment,
for always planning every outing without complaining and doing it out of love.

I adore you for your confidence,
for always knowing what to say when friends are in deep shit.

I adore you for your never-give-up attitude,
for your attitude encourages me.

And most importantly,
I adore you for who you are,
BECAUSE YOU ARE THE ONE AND ONLY TOO PEI PEI IN THIS WHOLE WIDE WORLD.

Never let anything bring you down,
for nothing is too difficult to be solved.
And never let anyone break your heart,
for the ones that love you will never thought of breaking your heart.

As you journey through another year of your life,
be reminded that you'll always have our support.
You'll never walk alone and whenever you fall,
we'll be there to wipe away your tears.
Whenever you are happy,
we'll be there to share your happiness.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEI PEI!!!
YOU ARE TRULY AN AWESOME FRIEND TO ME
TRUST IN YOURSELF AND FACE WHATEVER PROBLEMS THROWN TO YOU
WITH COURAGE AND POISE
BECAUSE I HAVE FAITH IN YOU THAT YOU CAN DO IT!

permaisuri/sailormoon/ceo/malat
YOU ROCK!!!

Realisation

Ever wonder how God answers prayers?? I always wonder whether my prayers will be heard by God or whether my prayers will just go in vain because i'm not a person who prays frequently. The time when i spend most in prayer will either be during exams or when i'm really desperate for help. I always lack that perseverance to pray, and when i do pray, i always whine to God about how bad my life is, question God when this misery will end.......... I complain, complain and complain and i just cant wait for all these " bad things" to end.

This morning i said a prayer while on my way walking to my classroom. I asked God to guide me through this path that i've chosen because i really do not have the motivation and strength to carry on anymore. I often think that what happened to me is the worst thing that can ever happen and the more i think the more i feel that i'm as useless as nothing.

I lost confidence in myself , looked down upon myself and my self esteem went down. Even though how hard i tried to motivate myself, after a while the initial hype will die down and i'll be back to the person who cries herself to sleep.

I despise this Sabrina. I hate showing to the world that i'm okay on the outside, joyful and always laughing but in fact i'm eating myself up with all the negative thoughts i put into my mind when i'm alone. I always ask people to pray for me, but i'm not praying for myself and doing anything to turn this whole thing around. All i do is to wait for people to pray for me and for God to work His miracle in my life.

God always works in ways we humans cannot understand and comprehend. God may not have turned my situation around but He let me realised that i am indeed blessed and fortunate than so many people in the world.

I may not have the brightest mind but God gave me passion to reach for my ambition.
I may not have the nicest body shape but God gave me good health.
I may not have a lot of money but God gave me a nice house to stay.
I may not have perfect parents but God gave me parents who love me unconditionally
I may not have what i want but God gave me a promise that His plan for me is always the best.

And guess how God spoke to me?? Through this quote that i saw from my friend's blog.


I believe its not pure coincidence that i saw this quote, but i choose to believe that God is speaking to me through these meaningful quotes.

I want to write it all down here because i want to remember today, that i once wrote something about the goodness of God so that when i'm lost in the future, i can find strength and courage from the past Sabrina.

From today onwards, i want to move on. I do not want to delve deeper and deeper into my problems. I want to set myself free. I want to be able to say proudly in the future that i'm an overcomer. I'm not a failure and i'll never be a failure.

And i believe in rainbow after the rain

So jia you Sabrina Leong, never let this passion in you die down and remember what you've wrote here today.

And remember to pray, pray and pray. For in prayer there comes miracles.

哭过就好了

终于哭了

没想到是在梦中哭了

把一切的委屈和压力都哭出来了

发现自己原来没有想象中坚强

有很多事情自己是没有能力做好的

开始怀疑自己了

开始不相信自己了

我讨厌这样的我

一个连自己都瞧不起自己的我

我曾几何时变成这样了呢?

那个充满自信的我去了哪里呢?

要相信难熬的始终会过去的

要坚信我是可以的

要自信的抬起胸膛, 告诉自己不要去在乎别人的冷嘲热讽

因为将来要做医生的人是不能那么软弱的

哭过就好了

是时候加油了

不要再让自己活在后悔和遗憾当中

笑一个吧!

这才是我认识的自己嘛!